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I STRIVE TO ACHIEVE GREATNESS...
through artistic works.
AIMING TO LIVE FOR MY WORK NOT WORK FOR MERELY A LIVING.
Sharing knowledge I gain through lessons I learned with those I know value & see what their worth.
L . O . V . E .
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It's in you to give.
Why not start right giving it away today?
Now's the perfect time, do so right away.
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June 9, 2010

ALL TO DO WITH ME


  1. I love to research and investigate, I worked for Private Investigators for a few years and almost went so far as applying to be one, I enjoy the mystery and intrigue of the unknown and revealing the truth through self-investigating. It is rewarding to me to know that I discovered or learned of something on my own that may have been kept hidden.

  2. I had Malignant Melanoma, the deadliest form of Skin Cancer oddly enough at the same time as my Dad whom I do not share DNA with, unbelievable and amazingly we both live to tell. I have been free and clear for 11 years now.

  3. I say number two while touching wood as I am inherently superstitious, thanks to my Granny for instilling it into me through her own beliefs. I am so strongly superstitious that there is always salt on my kitchen floor and counters because if I so much as sprinkle salt on anything I have to throw some over my left shoulder to counteract bad luck, even though it is only for spilling salt, my mind thinks that any grains that I just sprinkled and didn't land on my plate, etc has to have landed somewhere unintentional thus it be spilled salt. LOL Which brings me to # 4

  4. Obsessive, I am obsessive in nature I can not do any normal functions that have a systematic way or manner that I have to do such without following through just as I normally would. So much so that if I am suddenly having to spontaneously do something that I normally take great effort in or only do a certain way I become flustered, miserable and bitchy. Somewhat like a rabbit, ritualistic, has to take the same path all the time.

  5. However don't mistake my obsessiveness for lack of imagination or spontaneity. I am quite capable of being adventuresome and I love to embark on new and interesting ventures, the only requirement being that I am at present not fully engaged in other areas, I have to be at a leisurely place to undertake new areas.

  6. This explains my dedication/diligence in my undertakings. I recall being rather lazy when I was young well actually not lazy just wanting to be lazy or doing something more fun and when I would cut corners or shortcut whatever I was asked to do my Dad always would say not to do things half ass, which has stuck with me in a major way. I say the same thing to my kids and I live my life in attempt to do just that not to do anything half ass.

  7. I am capable. I can do what I set out to do, if I set out to do something I am usually always successful in my attempts due to my dedication and diligence # 6. However such capabilities may take me a great deal longer to do or accomplish due to my obsessiveness in ritual # 5, although still fully capable. I truly believe you can do anything you set your mind to as the saying goes..

  8. Looks can be deceiving, I may appear or have been classified by many as a dumb blond and such however I for-warn you I am extremely intelligent (TOOT TOOT, sorry tooting my own horn) and what you see is not what you get.

  9. I desire to be desired. I have a great need for attention and love and quite often can be seen in the spotlight of something in my attempts for such. I believe everyone desires to be desired however some won't admit such and others are not willing to strive for such. Do we not all want to hear about what people like about us? Do we all not love to hear praise and compliments? I am sure we do and I am not afraid to admit that I like it.

  10. 10. Honest to a fault, I am honest in a very candid and bold way. It is quite intimidating to some and I apologize for that however I was not always honest and I allowed for myself to feel bad because I couldn't confront what bothered me, I choose now to not allow for that to be the case which quite often puts me face to face with others. I can only hope that the outcome is positive and that my life will improve by living honestly.

  11. I believe that something good comes from something bad, the silver lining, the positive result due to a negative happening for if I didn't believe this I couldn't survive. There has to be balance, give and take, good and bad. YIN YANG An opposite is always present. RIGHT?

  12. I don't believe in God, however I do believe in Spirituality. I respect others choice in their religion and I have spent a long time trying to find where I fit in, I researched and experimented in various religions so as to determine where my beliefs lie I still continue to this day, I am more understanding of such but have not completely figured it out. There is a little bit of each religions beliefs that I agree with however each once had an area that I didn't believe or couldn't adhere to therefore casting me to another one to investigate. I have a spiritual nature but I am more scientific in my mind which causes doubt on many religions practices. I only ask that others respect my wishes or beliefs and I to will do the same for them.

  13. I have become anti-social, I fear rejection as I am sure we all do and I have loved and lost to many times, thus making me more comfortable being friendly and kind but not overly attached to anyone any more. I fear losing them so I tend to keep whom I have close very close and those that I am not close too somewhat at a distance. I crave interaction therefore I communicate online and in my daily travels however I avoid social gatherings which is something that I am working on.

  14. I highly believe in doing unto others as you would have them do unto you and you only get back what you put in, if you put half a heart into it you won't get the full response you wanted.

  15. I strive to be a Writer, I can write and I have stories to tell but in order to be a writer in my mind's eye and to be successful at it you have to be published, I do not have to earn millions of dollars just be recognized however the $ would be nice too. I just recently started putting my efforts back into such and I am pleased to say that I am receiving great response to such so I am well on my way.

  16. I am a list maker and a perfectionist. I write lists of what I need to accomplish, so much so that I have lists of the lists topics lol and I will not throw a list out if it is not completed so I am often having to carry list items over to new lists. Obsessiveness showing it's ugly head again lol. I also thrive to have perfection on what I do so I tend to take forever on doing something that I put my whole heart into, this frustrates those that are awaiting the resulting outcome however they are usually pleased with it and find it to be well worth the wait. I am so much of a perfectionist that when I finish doing this note I will double read it to correct any grammar errors, spelling and such and will be utterly horrified after posting it if I find yet another error.....

  17. I love entertaining and entertainment. In all aspects really, I enjoy karaoke even without any talent in such and I enjoy other's that sing and show their talents. I enjoy the arts, theater, film, comedy you name it. I too enjoy being responsible for entertaining others when I have. My highlights of such are the Air bands I did back in high school, my one-time appearance on 21 Jump Street where I met Johnny Depp (the episode can be viewed on my Splashcast in my Boxes, good luck spotting me), various drama performances of Monologues, Dancing at different times for others, Hosting/Emceeing Events I was the Emcee/Host for one of my Elementary School Performances and have had other times occur where I had to guide the way on mic. I like when people say I am funny and I should be a comedian I have had many do this, I however know I am funny but it is not something that is so naturally easy for me that I could comfortably stand on stage and have the words flow free from me. It would require a great deal of planning, memorizing and the like to pull that off. I believe that Ellen and I are very much the same in our thoughts, all of the topics she has covered in her routines have been things I have thought about in mind and not expressed. lol SHE IS AWESOME, HAHA I GUESS IF AM ALIKE I AM AWESOME TOO

  18. Which brings me to # 18 I love me.. I even became a fan on Facebook A fan of me.. lol It took me a long time to love myself, I still have areas that I am not pleased with however they are works in progress but they do not affect my love for myself and I strongly believe if I don't love myself I can not possible truly love another. Don't get me wrong I am not high on myself or egotistical I still have a hard time tooting my own horn but I love myself for even the stuff that I know that I don't do well, you have to be able to laugh at yourself, find humor in your errors because if you can't laugh at yourself, you won't be able to take a joke and you will be so serious that you will stress yourself into oblivion. I used to be so self-conscious of my looks, weight, anything really but now I know what areas are less favorable and I accept them which doesn't mean I go out of my way to announce them I still take great pride in looking nice however I don't allow my imperfections to rule my happiness.

  19. Need a nap yet, or just want to rub the ol eyes a bit, I know I am long-winded, I had a few nicknames growing up but the one that my Dad gave me which by the way he had a few of that comes to mind is Motormouth. He called me Motormouth and other people would be appalled to hear this stating it to be mean, it felt mean then but I laugh at it now, I have to agree, but I am the way I am because I am afraid I won't get to say what I want to say if I don't so I tend to go full speed blablablaing which can be a little dissettling I am sure to some. SORRY TO THOSE THAT I HAVE INFLICTED THIS TRAIT UPON BUT AS YOU WELL KNOW I AM SORRY BUT I WILL RE-OFFEND.... The nice thing about laughing at my own nickname now is that I have been able to give my Dad one of my own as I am sure that anyone that has conversed with him will agree in my choice "Diarrhea of the Mouth" you see it keeps running and running and running, you never get a chance to even butt in so maybe this is why I am a MOTORMOUTH... THANKS DAD.... lol I acquired a few other nicknames some of which I hate some I love but these are them in full Motormouth, Bratso, Kiddo, The Kid, Beanie, Weanie, Headly and my personal favorite, My Jeannie. Some of the names were done in cruelty but I can let it go now.

  20. Stories to tell, I have stories to tell that would horrify and astound, I have stories to tell that would break hearts and mend souls and I have stories to tell that would make you piss yourself laughing. I have not necessarily had the best or optimal life in the average man's eye but I have lived to date a life that has tales to be told and sometimes when I get thinking about my experiences and what I have gone through or what others I know have gone through I am dumb-founded as to how unbelievable it may seem..... MAYBE SOMEDAY YOU SHALL READ A TALE OR TWO OF WHAT I SPEAK BUT UNTIL THEN MY LIPS ARE SEALED AS I AM NOT SO COMFORTABLE WITH ALL THESE TALES TO FREELY SPEAK....

  21. My cat is my best friend, sad but true. My little Bebe Q is my number one companion these days but this does not bother me too much, you see her loyalty is phenomenal two friends recently witnessed such and found it hard to believe. When I leave the house she sits in the window and there she stays until I return again. It is good to know how loved I am when I come home, you see the family doesn't bound down the stairs and mull me with kisses and hugs, really how many people can say they are in receipt of just that probably not too many but when I return she is there on her perch, mewing at me as I unlock the door with my key and when I enter she is on the third stair sitting and looking at me with her betrayed loving stare and right then I am overwhelmed with warmth in my heart for I know she is no soon to leave me, depart.... I'm a poet and that's right I know it. lol However this is not always a good thing she also stalks me, guilt trips me and harasses me, she can be a really evil wicked vindictive little BIATCH at times lol... 

  22. I enjoy my own company. Many people do not like to be alone and for good reasons I am sure, I however do not mind it I actually enjoy it and require it at times. I was an only child and had to spend a great deal of time within the confines of my own mind and by this being my inbred nature I have grown to accustom myself to this. I enjoy being around others as I previously stated and thrive for attention however there are many a time that I just wish everyone to go about on their way as I have had enough and want to play lol with myself if you get my meaning not in a physically satisfying sense but in a mind set way, when you are around other people you have to keep in mind their thoughts and feelings and comfort and it is much easier and less worrying/stressful to only have yourself to please so I do enjoy making others feel happy and content but I also like to not have to worry all of the time as to anothers happiness. Which carries us to #23

  23. I am independent, my husband may be the bread winner at present however I am fully independent in my own abilities. I like to do things myself and I don't rely on another to make something happen for me. I know if I want it bad enough I will go get it, I also know that if I need it I will find it. I am resourceful and my diligence in what I do makes me feel assured that if I want or need I shall get...

  24. I have had very unlucky times and very lucky times this is where maybe my belief of good and evil and positive and negative comes from I don't know. My luckiest monetary time came when I went to my first Casino. I used to go to the Legion with my daughter's father and family and in doing this I befriended a senior that I would go halves with on buying pull tabs, I especially enjoyed going Friday and Saturday nights when they had Meat Draws and 50/50 Draws I found myself to more often than not be leaving with my groceries or spending money of the week. GOOD TIMES.... But the one time I speak of occurred just prior to my marriage in 1996. This senior and I went down to Harrah's Casino in Washington, he had been bugging me for a long time to do so. So we went and we quickly bored of it for what reason I am unclear and we were going to go home but I said to him just before leaving that we should at least go halves on something because we hadn't and we always did I said let's put 10 in each on this pull tab machine and he didn't really respond, come to think of it, I think he wanted to leave because he had lost at whatever he had tried and he was in a grumpy mood. So I decided to hell with him I was still going to purchase the tickets so I popped a twenty into the machine and pressed the button. A man that had been sitting there prior was watching me like a hawk, I was disappointed to see my twenty only purchased two tickets as they were 10 dollars each yikes, so I opened and said to my companion I don't know if I won anything or not it shows three jackpots on here but they are not on the same row just like the ones I was used to or there was no line running through them, so I asked the nearest attendant who replied by screaming out loud STOP THE MACHINES I was like what??? Soon to be informed that I had won the jackpot (progressive) thus the machines needing to be stopped, which kept rolling as tickets were purchased. Over 17,000.00 I laughed and said are you serious and he said very and I was asked if I wanted a cheque or cash, I said cash. My knees started shaking violently and I had a hard time standing, at which time the senior whose name I won't mention passed me ten dollars to go in half on the tickets, I could have laughed in his face but I took it and the casino took my picture which I've not seen to this day of me holding a monster sized check which I still have to this day.  They gave me just over 12,000.00 in cash as they taxed me on the spot for $ 5000.00 for being a non-resident, which I did collect back years later through IRS. I split the money with my counterpart and we headed straight to the border. IT WAS AN EXPERIENCE I SOON WON'T FORGET.. AMAZING REALLY.

  25. Well I was having a hard time all the way through this motivating myself to get it done and here I am on the final one. It seems all so complete I'm a little sad I have to leave, can't share more of my life and give you all something to read. So what do I put for my final Fact I think I will leave this one intact so as to reserve the right to add or adjust at some point should I need to experience such. So take that my final fact is to leave it intact. LOL





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HEY EVERYONE PLEASE READ THIS IT'S OF GREAT IMPORTANCE TO ME. (It won't take much of your time....)

     I wanted to send a shout out letting everyone know I'm in a position presently in my personal life that requires me to earn & acquire funds, personal accounts assets and a new start to my life. 

     My 17 year relationship now almost 14 years it being married I am now resigned in the conclusion that repairs required to heal and harmonize appear not a workable option thus I must forge forward. As saddened as I am by my needing finalize an lengthy and important chapter to my life I am equally instilled with fresh inspiration and motivation for my future. 

     I've been aiming for my life purpose and placement for sometime now and it is a slow going process.  It takes time, effort and thought to create oneself in the life they are meant to live. Many of the areas I was requiring to accomplish to achieve success I have made great strides in the progression of implementing such, however I am still not at the place that I ultimately aim to achieve in being fully operational and smoothly productive.

Nonetheless I have made enough of an achievement in this process to be readily available and in receipt of work offers and projects.  For many reasons which are irrelevant to the solution I do not have an income presently, bank accounts or personal assets of value etc to utilize, I do however have a pay pal account which is able to receive payment which is enough for my being able to start, I can also accept cash or money orders/drafts/recognized business cheques which I can liquidate via one of the many cheque cashing services available.

     Therefore nothing at this time is valid prevention from my being able to start.  Obviously time is of the essence for me and I wish to embark immediately therefore I ask of you at this time to take thought as to what I am capable of and my abilities I have displayed or listed via the various sites I have put into place
and should I be able to be of service to yourself please send a request with what you are willing to offer for payment in lieu of the service.  No fixed amounts or set prices etc. have been made to date for I'm flexible being that each individual project is unique & differs in capacity.  All I  ask for is fairness in your consideration... 






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     Should you not be in a position to offer any projects or work orders I respectfully request that you keep me in mind, possibly aiding in my being successful in my goal by promoting/suggesting my services/pages to others whom would benefit from my knowledge or abilities and are in a position to offer projects with monetary reward as result. 


     Should you not be in a position to offer any projects or work orders I respectfully request that you keep me in mind, possibly aiding in my being successful in my goal by promoting/suggesting my services/pages to others whom would benefit from my knowledge or abilities and are in a position to offer projects with monetary reward as result. 

     My Pay Pal Account to send funds is via email address: 


     jeanniegray@shaw.ca

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     The majority of what I aim provide in way of service can for the most part all be completed via online and without the need for travel, shipping, handling etc. this does not mean that should an area of such a capacity be required or a possibility that I am unavailable I still would wish to hear the request the details can be fine tuned in detail thereafter.

     I am obviously not fully launched in the area of costs of services / items listed for reason being I am still implementing all of this.  However this does in no way mean I am not flexible in terms or not able to provide the product or service.  If you require something, please just say the word and make an offer as to what you feel is fair worse come to worse I don't get a project and you don't get the service via me.  Best outcome possible you get what you require at the cost you want and I earn funds to take control of my own destiny and single independence.

     I don't wish to appear desperate however I'd be lying if I said I was not hard pressed to action.  Please consider this request and thank you for reading my post. I truly want to get on with it... MUCH APPRECIATION TO ALL THAT TAKE TIME FOR LITTLE OLE ME.

      Please share, please request and please take my plea to heart....

      THANK YOU   ;  )

      Jeannie Gray    -   HERE'S TO FRESH NEW FULFILLING LIFE CHALLENGES AND PROSPECTS!

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Numerology Number 3

Numerology Number 3

Number 3 in Numerology - The Heart of Humanity | ASTRONLOGIA

Number 3 in Numerology - The Heart of Humanity | ASTRONLOGIA


A Video I Composed For A Friend On Her Birthday (Spotlighting My Photo Edits & Video Production)



Westview Secondary School Class of 2010 Leaving Ceremonies

Tabatha Receives her Grade 12 Diploma Certificate at the Red Robinson Theater


June 20, 2010 alongside her fellow classmates from Westview Secondary School for the Class of 2010.



OH Yeah and YES I WAS THERE!!!!!! THANKS TO A FATHER WHO DID THE ALTRUISTIC ACTION OF ALL TIME FOR A FATHER TO DO ON FATHER'S DAY AND RELINQUISH HIS SEAT FOR THE BENEFIT OF HIS DAUGHTER. THANK YOU DAD !!! I LOVE YOU !!!!!!




THE FOLLOWING LINK Tabatha Graduates !
You can view a music accompanied slide show of all the events....  I recommend setting the speed to 7 secs if you like to glance at  text captions enclosed.
 
 
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